The Muddle Puddle

Hey All I am indeed still alive WOOT!

Work got crazy busy and is still busy with crazies... but eh suck is life.

I've been absorbed in updating Underneath it All and I'm proud to report 12k plus words later and it's done. I should have it up this weekend. (that's a lot to edit LOL)

As some of you know my personal life went to shit in late March. Lot's of drama and people showing their true colors all the way around including yours truly. Not meaning to be vague but just don't want to rehash it all... was some heavy stuff. But I am happy to report all is well (for the moment at least) and I did what I always said I would do if I was ever in a certain situation so I can at least say I stayed true to myself, I didn't take the "easy" way out. Suffice it to say it turned into a shitty After School Special and just like in a Lifetime Movie the truth is a bitter pill no one wants to swallow and if you are ever the only one willing to voice it, beware the fallout, but still do it because you know if you were on the other side of the fence you'd want to hear the "real deal" not the "easy deal".

Enough of that...

Original Fiction that has taken up most of my time the last year is moving along well and I hope to have another book out by the end of this year. Might Be Indie Publishing might be Dreamspinner not sure, too soon to tell.

Fell free to clue me into what's gone on in your life if you comment. Much love and hugs to all!

Now some eye candy!
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It's employee and employer review time at my workplace and some of you know the issues I have had there. It has not gotten any better.

Question four was "What do you like least about working here?" and I was honest... a page and a half worth of honesty.

Long story short, the one woman that likes to talk down to and be snide with anyone she feels like was overheard talking to me like that by the owner of the company while my direct supervisor was out. I talked to him, he talked to my boss and my actual review in the conference room is today.

The confusion comes in at her asking me yesterday if I want to "rewrite" my review. I don't understand this question. There isn't anything in there I want to take back but the real conundrum is why this question is being posed to me in the first place. Any one of you guys have any Human Resources experience out there? Can anyone shed some light on this?

Thanks

I know this is a rather random topic but it merits some light on it.

Faith... not in a religious sense but in a very personal sense. 

How much faith do you have in yourself, what you do and your place in the world at large?

I find myself wavering wildly on this one at times. Some days I'm taking over the planet and the next I don't feel worthy of the socks I'm wearing. I know some of it's a very natural thing (we all have great days and off days) but I think the demands of my job and the minimal compensation is having a negative effect on me.

This has come to light for me recently because of my job and all it demands of my time and all it requires me to know... and how very little my pay is. I've made almost twice as much doing half the work in the past and I think it's time for me to have a little faith in myself and start looking for another job.  Mind you I am grateful to be gainfully employed but at the same time I feel like I am being used and under-appreciated at times too... I blew this feeling off at first thinking "hey everyone feels this way at times" but when co-workers start saying things like wow I hope this place is giving you your due because you do the work of 5 people... it's time to think about moving on/up. 

All comments, thoughts and stories are welcome... comment away please!
 

I have had a great first few days at the new job and I am contributing my good mojo to all who have wished me well ^_^ However today I woke up to bad news. A really close friend of mine got jumped at our local karaoke spot and suffered some pretty severe damage to his eye. We had judged the contest together and I left when it was over due to having to work at 8am. To wake to find my phone full of messages all sounding panicked and tear-filled made it a hard long day. He is like my best bud and like my little brother so I worried myself into an upset stomach and a headache. I couldn’t reach him or his brother and it seemed like forever until 5pm.

Once I got to his house I found out his phone was destroyed in the incident and it looks like the person that jumped him for no reason (not saying that because he is my buddy but none of us even knew this guy by face nonetheless name and as far as the staff knew he had never set foot in the building before last night) …anywho they think the guy was on drugs. >.< This has been a long, hard trying day and it seems to be headed down hill so I am going to bed.

I hope you guys sleep well and dream even better *hugs*