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One Shot: Done
Title: Done
Fandom: Inuyasha
Pairing: Sesshoumaru/Kagura
Rating: T
Word Count: 1,063
Dear Sesshoumaru,
I am leaving.
No need to sugarcoat it or make it more than it is. I loved you dearly once and in a way I love you still. However, what once burned red hot between us has now gone cold and that is something my heart could not bear. After years of having my heart in the clutches of someone else you would think once, it was mine I would have never given it away. With you I had no choice, you came into my world and my heart wanted nothing else than to belong to you. So you could only imagine my delight when you said you felt the same.
I’m sorry I am rambling, you don’t want to hear all of this. Chances are you are reading this in haste and I’m keeping you from yet another obligation more important than I. Yes, that was snide but I am hurt and angered also at this point, I see no need to censor my words.
Not only am I leaving you I am leaving you to go to the arms of another. You will know now if you haven’t suspected already, but again I doubt you’ve had the time to notice.
Everything should have been so fine, so pristine and it was… in the beginning. Once Naraku was no more, you even settled things with your brother and his troop. In no time, we were all one big happy family.
And we were…dear Kami we were. Then it started.
“I am needed in the Verisai territory,” you’d say.
I would make moves to get ready to accompany you only to be greeted with, “No your place is here,” and without another word as if I had no say, no choice you’d turn and leave without even a kiss goodbye. Was I so foolish to think my place was at your side?
I suppose I was.
The first time this happened I thought something horrible was taking place and you were worried for my safety…by the seventh time this happened I stopped asking to go.
That I could have lived with. The physical distance that was between us at times but this emotional distance, when we are under the same roof, is more than I can take. How is it that I went from the one you longed to see, to the one you haven’t seen in the longest time? Perhaps you are clueless as well.
It seemed like everyone could see my pain and loneliness but you.
I was walking in the woods trying to figure out what went wrong between you and I when he approached me the first time. It was just idle conversation but it was nice to talk to someone that was listening and not simply nodding at the appropriate times.
And without us even realizing it, this became a ritual. I would go for a walk he would appear and so it was.
But as I am sure you can guess it did not remain so innocent. That turned into one of us actively seeking the other out. Which turned into late night meetings even when you were home and well, the first time we kissed I told him this could not happen and it was you I loved. He was disappointed but apologized and gave me my space.
I came to you and told you of my loneliness and how I missed the time, we used to spend together. I told you how I ached to be in your arms and you know what you said to me? Do you even remember?
“Surely a demoness of your power and standing must realize how foolishly childish you sound right now.”
Childish is what you called my desire for you. Foolish is what you called my needs. I abhor the former but I shall admit to the latter because I stayed and I tried to fix all that was broken between us only for you to continue to treat me like background noise or a fancy outfit only to be taken out and doted on in front of dignitaries and business associates.
I know now that he watched this all take place from afar and when he could stand it no longer he appeared in my doorway one night as I watched you leave. He listened to me as I ranted and raved. He held me as I cried myself to sleep once I realized all hope for you and what we once had was lost.
Weeks passed and when I made up my mind, I would plead for your affections no more it was I who sought him out.
What had developed between us sparked into heated actions with a mere look. We needed no words as our bodies drew closer and everything we tried to deny flowed out and around us like an almost tangible cloud of desire. His fingers left hot tingling trails of promised passion as they moved over my skin. His tongue danced with mine with an ardor I thought never to experience again. He whispered things to me both loving and lurid.
Our joining was filled with such passion I am sure anyone still awake knows what has taken place.
Yes my former love, I write this as I sit here just now awakened from the rest I took after being with my new lover.
Everything that you’d denied me for so long I realized he’d always given to me freely and that perhaps is what I needed all along. Someone to give me their heart instead of simply wanting to have mine as some trophy.
I will say my goodbyes, explain things to Rin as best I can and wish everyone well. We shall leave long before your slated return for I know even without this letter your nose will know what has happened. Please do not come for me, as I have nothing that you desire. Despite all the pain you’ve caused me I hope whatever you’ve done with your time and kingdom brings you enough happiness to compensate for whatever loss, if any, you feel.
~Kagura
I turn around and golden eyes that hold a softness and joy Sesshoumaru’s never could lock onto my own.
“Are you ready?”
“Yes,” I say as I lay the letter on your desk. I was ready to start my life anew.
Fandom: Inuyasha
Pairing: Sesshoumaru/Kagura
Rating: T
Word Count: 1,063
Dear Sesshoumaru,
I am leaving.
No need to sugarcoat it or make it more than it is. I loved you dearly once and in a way I love you still. However, what once burned red hot between us has now gone cold and that is something my heart could not bear. After years of having my heart in the clutches of someone else you would think once, it was mine I would have never given it away. With you I had no choice, you came into my world and my heart wanted nothing else than to belong to you. So you could only imagine my delight when you said you felt the same.
I’m sorry I am rambling, you don’t want to hear all of this. Chances are you are reading this in haste and I’m keeping you from yet another obligation more important than I. Yes, that was snide but I am hurt and angered also at this point, I see no need to censor my words.
Not only am I leaving you I am leaving you to go to the arms of another. You will know now if you haven’t suspected already, but again I doubt you’ve had the time to notice.
Everything should have been so fine, so pristine and it was… in the beginning. Once Naraku was no more, you even settled things with your brother and his troop. In no time, we were all one big happy family.
And we were…dear Kami we were. Then it started.
“I am needed in the Verisai territory,” you’d say.
I would make moves to get ready to accompany you only to be greeted with, “No your place is here,” and without another word as if I had no say, no choice you’d turn and leave without even a kiss goodbye. Was I so foolish to think my place was at your side?
I suppose I was.
The first time this happened I thought something horrible was taking place and you were worried for my safety…by the seventh time this happened I stopped asking to go.
That I could have lived with. The physical distance that was between us at times but this emotional distance, when we are under the same roof, is more than I can take. How is it that I went from the one you longed to see, to the one you haven’t seen in the longest time? Perhaps you are clueless as well.
It seemed like everyone could see my pain and loneliness but you.
I was walking in the woods trying to figure out what went wrong between you and I when he approached me the first time. It was just idle conversation but it was nice to talk to someone that was listening and not simply nodding at the appropriate times.
And without us even realizing it, this became a ritual. I would go for a walk he would appear and so it was.
But as I am sure you can guess it did not remain so innocent. That turned into one of us actively seeking the other out. Which turned into late night meetings even when you were home and well, the first time we kissed I told him this could not happen and it was you I loved. He was disappointed but apologized and gave me my space.
I came to you and told you of my loneliness and how I missed the time, we used to spend together. I told you how I ached to be in your arms and you know what you said to me? Do you even remember?
“Surely a demoness of your power and standing must realize how foolishly childish you sound right now.”
Childish is what you called my desire for you. Foolish is what you called my needs. I abhor the former but I shall admit to the latter because I stayed and I tried to fix all that was broken between us only for you to continue to treat me like background noise or a fancy outfit only to be taken out and doted on in front of dignitaries and business associates.
I know now that he watched this all take place from afar and when he could stand it no longer he appeared in my doorway one night as I watched you leave. He listened to me as I ranted and raved. He held me as I cried myself to sleep once I realized all hope for you and what we once had was lost.
Weeks passed and when I made up my mind, I would plead for your affections no more it was I who sought him out.
What had developed between us sparked into heated actions with a mere look. We needed no words as our bodies drew closer and everything we tried to deny flowed out and around us like an almost tangible cloud of desire. His fingers left hot tingling trails of promised passion as they moved over my skin. His tongue danced with mine with an ardor I thought never to experience again. He whispered things to me both loving and lurid.
Our joining was filled with such passion I am sure anyone still awake knows what has taken place.
Yes my former love, I write this as I sit here just now awakened from the rest I took after being with my new lover.
Everything that you’d denied me for so long I realized he’d always given to me freely and that perhaps is what I needed all along. Someone to give me their heart instead of simply wanting to have mine as some trophy.
I will say my goodbyes, explain things to Rin as best I can and wish everyone well. We shall leave long before your slated return for I know even without this letter your nose will know what has happened. Please do not come for me, as I have nothing that you desire. Despite all the pain you’ve caused me I hope whatever you’ve done with your time and kingdom brings you enough happiness to compensate for whatever loss, if any, you feel.
~Kagura
I turn around and golden eyes that hold a softness and joy Sesshoumaru’s never could lock onto my own.
“Are you ready?”
“Yes,” I say as I lay the letter on your desk. I was ready to start my life anew.
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*icon love*
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Feel free to snag it little lady *glomps*
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Thanks! I would, but I have no room for it. ^^; I'm at the limit of what I can have without buying more space.
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*luffs*