It was my #1 vice for 17 years and I feel... lost? at times without it. It's like an old friend... a toxic friend but an old comfortable one all the same.

I'm just eating myself silly and hating that too... lose lose right now. Too much on my plate

*hugs you*

yeah it's fucking with us but what can we do its all in our heads.. in our brains... and our brains run the whole show... we are puppets ne?